I (13f) have an abusive stepfather, Justin (38?m) of 4 years.
my mother(40f) married him perhaps a 2 years after my biological father died, which wouldnt be an issue if he weren’t a dick. to make a long and short of it, here are the basics:
they have 3 biological children together, all of which 10+ years younger than me and I have one older full sister. since before i even knew what it meant he was completely racist, mysoginistic, and homophobic.
when I was 10-11 I acidentaly burned my little half brothers hand with some hot food, resulting in thit’d degree burns. I want to be clear this was a complete accident. well, this resulted in my stepdad giving me 25 hits with a belt (no big deal, I know but it gets worse). we had recently had a pool put in, leaving a huge mound of dirt in our yard. he made me shovel and carry dirt In a wheel barrow for multiple hours a day and I was consistently cleaning, which still seems light from what we’re gong to get into. anyway, I was 10 so my first reaction was to run away, which I did. when I was found I lied and claimed I had been snatched and got away, which was discovered to be a lie within the day. they sent me to Brentwood then I came out with lexipro.
things continues to progress afterwords with some more “mundane“ things like my mother having to file multiple domstic abuse charges, going to the hospital, and my stepdad began calling both me my mother and my sisters “whores, sluts“ and my personal favorite “fat bitches”.
then in fifth grade i was caught with a tablet where i had been secretly texting friends at the time (i know, my fault), but i had also begun to sh and i had sent a picture to my friend of one of my thighs covered in cuts because she was worried about me. Well this was discovered because one of them told on me, and cps got involved for a second time, chocked it up to middle child syndrome, Which is what they said verbatim mind you, and dissmissed any abuse charges. I got yelled at and punished for multiple days by both my mother and stepfather and I ran away for a second time, but I was again caught. I was sent to brentwood again, then another psych ward in I think Jackso with “homicidal and suicidal Ideations”. Which to be fair, I was quite murderous of this man at this point.
after That I suppose he was done with any semblance of peace, Becuse though I had braces he would hit me in the mouth anytime I did chores wrong or “talked back” after that point, causing me to have some scars on the inside of my mouth. He also gave me one of the worst beatings iv ever received from him that summer, where he’d said if I don’t “straighten up” I would end up in a woman’s prison with a curking iron in my vagina, [Insert more terrible hateful things🙄], where I got punched and slapped multiple times, dragged by my hair, pinned to the floor with his knee (he’s 300+ pounds), and slammed into the wall.
Since then I’ve gotten “better”’ Behavior, wise, meaning I’ve learned to keep my head down. I now have a phone, as you can tell, and I’ve gotten very, very good Things. I have to email accounts and I don’t text friends or anything because they took me out of school to “ Homeschool” me. Which, legally I suppose they do because they have me on a homeschool program, But I don’t actually have a chance to get Most of it done because I’m just a full-time babysitter for my three younger toddler siblings. My older sister 19, as a nursing school. He’s hitting has also slowed down, but it’s still very prevalent and he can still be very Violent at times, And I’ve still been called a whore and He’s made comments on my body concerning my figure and how it could be veiwed sexually.
i’ve told my mother of this, but she brushes off my concerns and the concerns about my violence towards her or myself, She also can’t believe him because of legal reasons concerning their biological children and financial abuse.
But to be very clear, my mother is not innocent because she has also hit me and taking the side on a lot of things before, even though she is a victim in her own way.
Over the past year, so I have also become more politically informed in while he is MAGA I am quite literally decidedly, gay and against I.C.E.
Yesterday he used the term “Modern women” to me. Yeah.
I only write this because at the moment I’m holding a rag to the shallow cuts on my wrist from my half assed attempt of killing myself because I simply felt I could not live here anymore, But then I I real realized I refuse to kill myself just because it’s man as a sad sack of shit, In a while, I still love my little siblings, I have grown selfish enough to be willing to separate myself or maybe then it means I can be free, Because I figure I cannot make it until 18 to get out. If anyone could offer any that isn’t CPS or police that would be great or, just anyway that I can escape.
thank you Reddit! :)
(for clarification, location: Columbia, Mississippi laws Should apply to my situation because that’s where I live)